Hanging there in suspense

Don’t know what to do next! Don’t know what I’m doing right now! I’m in a time when I’m totally confused what to do next. Very unlikely me! Usually I’m a much planned person and have plans for the next 2 to 3 years. And in case I don’t have any plans working out, I will freak the mess around me, google out options – day in and out, talk to elders, parents, professionals etc.. etc.. and pray hard – asking God (or rather yelling at Him) to show me the way. And only when I get my answer and plans start working out – will I rest and be at peace.[I totally believe in working hard]

But this time, it’s not me – It seems. Neither am I confident of Plan A, nor do I have any plans B, C, D, E…. And instead of freaking out – I am at peace!

(ME!) I’m not worried, sleepless, frenzied – It’s really not me, I tell you!

In the past days, God has almost always answered me, guided me, and assured me, in ways that I could find rest in Him! Ways beyond doubt.

But for the first time in my life, I have no specific answer and still I’m here enjoying my vacation! As if nothing needs to be done. Its Like God is telling me – “Do you trust me? Even in my silence”

“BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD”

Similarly, when I was reading plenty of novels in the past few weeks, I was somehow – somewhere rushing through the pages, only to get to the climax as soon as possible.

Even though, each page was very beautifully written and equally enjoyable. I somehow missed enjoying the book – only to get to the ending.

It’s the same with the author of Life – God. He wants us to enjoy each day as it comes. Not to rush through it getting to the climax! Not just to hurry getting to the next goal – Job or marriage or whatever it may be!

He wants us to seek Him – Not just when we have questions or goals! But also in the very small details of everyday life – Even as I hang in suspense

He wants me to trust Him – Not just when things are sorted and the way is clear, but also and much more when things are not sorted and everything is in a blur!

He doesn’t promise answers But He promises His unfailing love and presence.

“The life of Faith is to be lived one day at a time, and it has to be lived – not always looked forward to, as though the ‘real’ living were around the next corner. It is today for which we are responsible, God still owns tomorrow.” – Elisabeth Elliot

[listen to : ‘breathe’ by jonny diaz]